Well this past ten days has been quite the ride, bringing multitudes of lessons and levels of awareness of self once again!
I am not even sure how or why this experience what I shall call “Waves” hit me, These waves started about ten days ago , What I remember was that I was going about my day as usual, and then all of a sudden, I was immersed in these feelings that swirled through my body, within several minutes, feelings of extreme sadness overtook my mind, I felt my body start to feel heavy and weak…..
I felt like I wanted to cry!…..
I stood there breathing into these emotions, witnessing and looking to identify where they were coming from and why? Within a few minutes, I witnessed my vibration and energy level drop even more, I felt strong waves of sleep coming on, yet it was only midafternoon, and I thought to myself, I have way too much to complete before the end of today!
I remember trying to complete the tasks at hand, and several times forgetting what I had went to get from the shop, a mere two minutes before, I could not keep focus!…..as the afternoon turned to evening, my mind and body felt anxious, and a building of internal frustration and agitation , mainly due to my not being able to shake off or shift this feeling that was growing and getting heavier!…..
I remember saying to myself….OK Blue, let’s get some rest and tomorrow will be a brand new day, and we will be back to normal in the morning!……
Well that night as tired as I was, I had difficulty falling asleep, and once I did, I kept waking up every hour or so with uneasy feelings washing through me. I continued to focus on positive visions with good for the whole outcomes, it was like ocean waves, I would imagine a positive vision and view it as a growing wave on the ocean, and just as quick waves of visions of all the imbalance on our planet swept right back at me, it was as if I were feeling the collective emotions of many beings on this planet, who had just lost or about to loose all they had worked for during their life…. I was feeling the bitter cold and the pain from hunger that millions upon millions were feeling in that very moment! It was so very intense, I found myself gasping for air trying to breathe!
I was overwhelmed with many feelings, I felt a huge wave of emotional anger, I felt anger and disgust, for the scheming ruthless beings who dreamed up the federal reserve, and created a system of self-serving, which had no intent of ever benefiting the whole, I felt anger for the ones who are spraying aluminum and barium in our upper troposphere over our heads each and every day, polluting our air and water with these particulates and not disclosing the real reason to the mass population!
How and why had this all come to be!….
And why was I feeling all this negativity? I have been preparing my whole life for this very shift, I was born knowing of this time now at hand! I have been taught over and over to not become attached, during the quickening!……
Well ok then, looks like I need to detach and remember a bit more!
The next ten days were filled with layer upon layer, I would pull my energy up and use my focus on the positive and hold it as long as I could, yet these waves were relentless, I found myself using much of my energy resisting what I was moving through or what was moving through me! At times I felt so much pressure I just wanted out of this body, I remember feeling, enough already, I’m done, give me a helium tank, and lets leave this place!……
Yet I knew there was some reason and lesson in all of this, and I started to realize that I didn’t really want anyone else to help me find my way out of these feelings, I wanted to stay there till I learned how to do it myself, in fact what I found was that I really wanted to go as deep into them as I could and learn to not resist what was moving through me, and for the next nine days, I prayed for guidance and let go and went as deep as deep would go!
Well yesterday morning, the 18th of October 2010 as I started my day I looked out my window, and I saw a dot of Orange catch my eye, as I focused, an instant feeling of relief came into my body, just as a breath of fresh air!
I got up from my chair grabbed the camera and walked through the sliding glass door out towards this shining beacon of Orange!…..
As I got closer, each breath seemed to bring nourishment of vibrant energy into my body.
As I reached this one lone flower, I felt a flow through my body!
There it was, One oh so beautiful gift from creator waiting to share its knowledge!
In those next few moments I witnessed a strength and power that was being offered by this one small beacon of light, a power and energy much stronger than the other forces in which my mind and body had been consumed by……
That’s how it started, somehow, some way, the energy flowing through this one lone flower, started to re-align the flow of my vibrational body once again!
I sat there looking at this flower and drinking in the energy that was once again flowing through me….. In my mind’s eye I witnessed the energy flowing through this flower, I felt my own body start to open up even more, It felt like my body was changing from a fine mesh screen on a window, transforming into chicken wire which allowed more to pass through!
My whole body felt like a dried up sponge, being immersed in pure clean water, I was so amazed how my body started to feel stronger so quickly,
I flashed back on the past few days, remembering how I kept telling myself
I remembered feeling the frustration of how all my old ways did not work in shifting my vibration, I remembered how easy it was
for my emotions to be swirled with rampant thoughts and how important being aware of our thoughts influence focus!
Yes I am Remembering once again!
It was very clear to me this lesson of Moving Through was something I need to master NOW!, as we are defiantly moving through or into a new vibration and density and there is no doubt left that this shift is happening with increasing intensity and if in fact it will increase in intensity, I sure wish to be able to handle it with much more ease!
So as we to ride these waves of vibrational change together, I give thanks for this experience and for the gift of life which has been given, I realize more and more, how very blessed we are to have and “BE” beacons of light for each other, as we continue…. Moving Through ……
May we reflect and give thanks for all beacons of light on our path each day!
I am Soooo very happy to be on this mission with you!
Sending Big hugs of Flower Power Love!